Ok, there’s something I haven’t told you yet. Something that I wasn’t sure if I would ever even mention. But, a month ago I took a second job. It was something I did out of fear. A fear that I was being reckless. That going solely boudoir wasn’t going to work for me. That this life is too good to be true and there’s no way I could expect to succeed.
In an attempt to always be genuine on here I wanted to open up. After my first day of working 14 hours I realized it was a huge mistake. I worked non-stop for 4 weeks. 14 hour day after 14 hour day and no full days off. I was exhausted. But, some small piece of me felt good about it. Like my self-esteem was wrapped up in how far I could push myself.
I couldn’t do it for long and I was having to neglect my clients in order to help someone else’s business grow. The moment I realized I’d lose money if I continued was the moment I was able to set myself free.
I’m not proud to have taken a job and quit it so quickly. But, I am relieved that I realized it soon enough.
Now, the reason I say this…
I woke up this morning with the most delightful sense of gratitude.
It’s my first day back to only working for myself.
I want to say THANK YOU.
Thank you for being here. For reading my words. For trusting me to capture your memories. For opening up your hearts to me. For telling your friends to book with me.
You are the reason I am able to chase this dream. That I’m able to pay my rent.
It’s something I’m aware of everyday and I hope that you’ve all felt my gratitude for you in the past.
But, I wanted to take the time today to make sure you all knew just how much you mean to me.
I cherish your presence and your support!