Do any of you ever feel paralyzed when you’re uncertain?
It seems like my life is more uncertain then ever before.
I’ve always been someone who knew her next step.
Honestly, I’ve always known my next five steps.
Graduate high school.
Go to college.
Have a career.
While the plans changed along the way and life was navigated in reaction to those changes, there was still a direction to move in.
Now that I’m working on being content in my current circumstances I am feeling extremely unsettled.
I know that something isn’t quite right for me and I can’t pinpoint what that is.
I have lots of ideas and I could list them to you in the rambly manic tone that I think them in.
But, the extent of my uncertainty has me standing still.
I have moves that need to be made and I know for sure that nothing in my life will feel quite right until I make them.
It’s just determining which ones are right for me that’s difficult.
This level of uncertainty, of feeling stuck and unsure has me daydreaming about running away.
Is that a thing we can do?
After all we only get this one chance at life. Why live it any way other than exactly how we want it?
Maybe that’s what I need to do, just take some time to breathe and evaluate what it is I need.
Maybe that’s just called a vacation…
with love and uncertainty,