On October 2, I wrote “Like a lighthouse on the horizon, I can see the burnout.”
I was talking about how everything in my life at the time was taking equal importance. How I couldn’t separate the necessary from the wanted.
In an attempt to always be open and honest with you and myself, I have to admit that the time has come.
That I’ve reached the lighthouse.
While reaching the lighthouse technically means you’ve reached the shore.
That’s exactly the opposite of how I feel.
It’s more like I’m in the middle of the roughest waves I’ve encountered. Being tossed around and pushed back down by the water.
I feel shaken and discouraged.
I want nothing more than to give everything I have to this.
To do it exactly right and to never mess up.
But, I’m just one person.
I’m not a machine and I’m not programmed for perfection.
I have feelings and a capacity that I’ve pushed for far too long.
It’s time for me to rest.
I will be taking a week off starting tomorrow.
A full week. I won’t respond to e-mails, text messages, or phone calls.
More than likely the blog will be silent.
Please do not allow this to make you feel unappreciated or forgotten.
It’s simply the only thing I know to do right now.
I have to breathe.
Thank you for being lovely.
I will see you next Tuesday!