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A Deep Aching Sadness Within Me. {Asheville, NC Boudoir Photographer}

I should probably use this blog post today to promote my event tonight…
{I’m hosting a masquerade party at MG Road Bar and Lounge. It starts at 8pm and is going to be AMAZING! You can find out more here }

However, I have a lot on my mind today. It’s something that’s been itching at me and something that I have been doing a lot of writing on lately.

So, I’m going to share that instead.

I hope that’s OK with you.

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There’s a part deep inside of me that is sad.

While my cheerful demeanor is more genuine than I can comprehend, it’s not void of aching.
I spend countless hours pursuing happiness and health. I smile when I’m alone and I believe the best of people.
Those things are core parts of my being.

However, it’s as if there’s a little person within me that is constantly tugging at my heart.

It’s a deep aching sadness within me.
It’s always been there and I don’t know if it will ever go away.

It’s like an old nickel that’s been shined up to look new.
But, there’s one spot that’s still rusty.

My soul is that old nickel.
Worn down over the years.
As much as I polish it- there’s still that one spot to remind me of all that I’ve been through.

While I’d like to see my soul perfectly shiny,
perhaps it’s the rusty part that actually breathes.

That’s the part that meets people where they are.
That sees without judgement.
That can handle the rough times.
That’s the part that truly understands how to love.

Without all the wear and tear,
I’m nothing but a pretty piece of metal.
Cold and without character.

with love and the rusty spots,

Sarajane.

Jessica Hedrick - October 17, 2013 - 2:47 pm

While I’d like to see my soul perfectly shiny,
perhaps it’s the rusty part that actually breathes.- Sarajane Case

Brenna Pearl Cauthen - October 17, 2013 - 6:21 pm

This is very beautiful. <3 I love you for the shiny and the rusty parts!

Aubrey Schierbeek - October 17, 2013 - 6:56 pm

Beautiful. Well written. You are not alone. ♥ see u tonight. Allie and I have masks and we are very excited!

Megan De Camara - October 17, 2013 - 7:48 pm

I love every part of you!!

Heather Allegood-Fleming - October 26, 2013 - 1:57 am

This is so well written and a lovely, yet sad feeling that I think everyone has. Thanks for sharing!
PS. This picture is one of my all time favorites!

Melissa Allen - May 24, 2014 - 10:38 pm

Being too shiny is only a mask, a bright reflection of perfect light that the world makes us believe we need to be. But what’s more intriguing? Rust that adds color, depth, and a sort of knowing that only time or ocean waves could bring? Or a a shiny piece, so clean and new, scared to even be seen for fear of blemishes?

Melissa Allen - May 24, 2014 - 10:39 pm

Being too shiny is only a mask, a bright reflection of perfect light that the world makes us believe we need to be. But what’s more intriguing? Rust that adds color, depth, and a sort of knowing that only time or ocean waves of heartbreak and grief could bring? Or a a shiny piece, so clean and new, scared to even be seen, to love, for fear of blemishes?

Kristen Hipps - May 25, 2014 - 11:42 pm

Beautiful! I love the last little part…so true!!

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